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Salam my beloved baby nur insyirah,

I pray that you're happy and healthy with your mom. this is my first week in johor as part of the new job. quite a few development about everything, but it circulates mainly about people surrounding you. Been getting emails from people i never know, and getting more stories about the life surrounding you and your mom. Sad mainly. New work also require more time to know the town, the people and i already know the job all right.

I had a long thought of you last night and your mom. you seemed happy and healthy with her but only Allah knows how fragile her state of mind is. All the lies she have develop over the years i guess to cover her self up from her previous life. Changed your name. Dissed her friends and her family. she or asmah, i dont know who really, wrote something on your blog. Nasty as before. They haven't changed.

Your mom run away even from your own grandfather and grandmother, her own parents. When that was the reason why she left our family in the first place, to be obedient to her parents. I guess the devil outsmart us all. For me, they are all history now. But for your mom, it is something that she is carrying, a hidden emotional luggage and will continue to carry for the rest of her life. The curse of a disobedient wife. One of these days, she will forget who she really was. And it will affect you long term. That has been the center of our concern.

Eventually i had a dream of you both last night and dreams are dreams. i woke up and prayed so that things get better. i pray for the best for you. i pray that the decisions I make this time is correct and we receive guidance from Allah. Im always here for you baby, always.

Abah.