"Ya Allah, i pray to you ya Allah that you give my baby insyirah all the kindness in this world. From everything and everyone surrounding her. Give her happiness and joy in this world and there world hereafter.
Give her solace and bliss and shower her life with goodness and take away all her sorrow. Guide her ya Allah, give her Hasanah and give her Hidayah. Let her know that she has a father whom love her dearly and thinking of her every single day of her life.
Give us the strength to fulfil our dreams ya Allah. Show us the true path that will lead us to Jannah. Place us in your heaven and make us successful in this world and the world hereafter. We pray only to You for there's no one else but you." Amin.
My beloved baby, how are you. Im fine and thinking of you. I meant to write you sooner when i was at mt kinabalu last night, but my phone went off and I cant do much about it. Was a bit down thinking of being away from you and thinking about this upcoming transfer. but life goes on. Ill be back here and and anywhere you need me insyaAllah.
I started climbing the mountain on saturday via mensilau, the second trail towards the peak. it a bit harder in comparison to the normal timpohon trail and 2 kilometers longer. i was not prepared and i just walked in hoping that someone might cancel the last minute. Alhamdulillah, someone did and I managed to get it. I hiked the first 6 kms alone because they were out of guide. Along the way, I kept thinking of you and your mom and my life, our life. Things that we should do and where do I go from here. I had alot of unsettled emotion and I used it to fuel the hike.
I thought about my late sister yan. your mom and yan went through this trail together before she passed away. i had a mental picture of three of them. Then I thought about my life again and what do i want in this life. I prayed and when i reached the peak, i prayed fajr. Along the way, I played back some recordings I got of you during my visitations when you were in KK.
The whole journey was long. Going up the trail was 10.5 km and going back down was 8.5 km. It was quite a trip and eventhough I didnt get much resolution out of it, at least i got some peace of mind. Emotionally leveled again. The trip was meant to fix my emotion and it did just that.
Ill transfer soon back to johor with my parents. we have a home in kk now where you and mom can stay, if you let her :-) and another home in Damansara. Ill continue to work hard and in few years time, i hope I get to a level where I can bring you back and stay with me.
I really cannot see how for now, but Allah is full of miracles. And He guides people who seek guidance, amin.
Love you baby,
Abah.
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