the clouds

salam my baby aiya,

I miss you and i love you so much. Went shopping last night with uncle zul to buy your clothes and things. I pray that you're ok wherever you are. Bought your basic things. I used to buy supplies for you before, so i know abit about what you like and what you eat. But you're all bigger now. Plus 1 year. So, it was a bit of a challenge too.

The search is slow and im getting worried. I had a dream again last night about you. Not a good dream. Maybe i sleep too much. I just pray that Allah gives me the strength to go through everything that comes after this. God, im scared.

My friend from sudan textd me and asked about my transfer to offshore operation. He is very kind person. I think i made the right decision to hold the transfer for my company is sending me for a promotion exam next week. Maybe we'll see whats the result from there.

Im making plans just in case i have to stay in kk for good so that i can be with you all the time. At the same time, i also pray alot to Allah for we never know whats coming. There's an old song that i like and somehow, it summarizes some parts of our lives.

I looked at clouds from both sides now. From up and down and still somehow, the clouds illusions that i recall, i really dont know clouds.

I looked at love from both sides now, from give and take and still somehow, the love illusions that i recall, i really dont know love at all.

I looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose and still somehow, this life illusions that i recall, i really dont know life at all. I really dont know life at all.

Love,
Abah