Happy Birthday

Assalamualaikum wbt,

My dear baby, the person i love unconditionally, forever and ever in my life, nur insyirah. You are 2 years today.

1. I bought a birthday gift for you yesterday. a cute looking book "where the wild things are" by maurice sendak.

2. Im imagining reading this simple and large book for you. you will definitely like it. I will wrap it and keep it with the rest of presents i bought you during my travels. someday, when you come see me, ill let you have it all, in our own small house in kl and kk.

2. uncle md and tern wish you happy birthday too. the whole family miss you and we pray that you're happy wherever you are with mom. we'll be busy next week preparing for his wedding with aunty tikah.

3. im adding another fish in this blog to signify your age. two fishes mean you're 2 years now, just my small way of reminding me of how big you are now. and today, i pray that you live a happy life with many many more fish in the pond on this blog.

4. had a dream of your mother last night, but a dream is a dream. good thing that it's a happy dream. i come to understand now that maybe mom was not really into me last time because i was not her first love. but for me, she was my first.

5. i only come to realize that my sadness from missing you and your mother transcend into my reality from my eyes. people who really know me can see it and i come across it when i take my own picture. i'll try to mitigate this in some way. wear glasses for a start hehe.

6. checking my last entry on your birthday last year, i believe im more relax and happier now. no more episodes or sad events originating from the syeikh followers, your mom, or her parents. I hope that's a positive sign for me.

7. I'm making a point that from today onwards 12/12 will be your day and the day i dedicate for thinking and planning for our future. May Allah permit.

Love, no matter what.
Abah