tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32880042722089304982024-03-05T12:00:51.186+08:00My AiyaA blog to write about my feeling, thoughts, prayers and hope when I remember my beloved baby, Nur Insyirah. It is my hope that when I'm gone, my friends will print this blog and give it to my baby. So that she knows, i think of her everyday in my life.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.comBlogger105125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-53193396864450757082010-10-13T00:43:00.001+08:002010-10-13T00:44:51.512+08:00MalamMy poem for tonight.. <br /><br />Love you,<br />Abah<br /><br />Malam<br /><br />Awak lagi,<br />Sekarang awak datang lagi,<br />Orang tak cari, orang tak peduli,<br />Tapi awak datang lagi.<br /><br />Selamat datang malam,<br />Selamat datang kelam,<br />Asar dah hilang, magrib dah datang,<br />Selamat datang bulan dan bintang.<br /><br />Tapi awak kena tunggulah,<br />Jalan masih jam, malas nak redah,<br />Nanti saya jamak jer, bukan jamak takyah,<br />Tapi jamak takhir, bila sampai rumah.<br /><br />Selamat malam jb, kk, kl,<br />Semoga jiwa2 yang penat,<br />Bila awak datang, dapatlah berehat.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-40062820296861425392010-10-10T00:23:00.000+08:002010-10-13T00:45:15.179+08:0010.10.10Quite a date.. salam baby, <br /><br />I hope that you're happy and healthy with mom. I've been meaning to write you sooner, but things are getting busier by the day. Maybe, I wont be able to write you as much as I used to and as much as I like to. Work, family, life, friends and new friends are all requiring attention. InsyaAllah, I will stop by here from time to time. <br /><br />Maybe this is the next step.. So that abah can slowly move on :)<br /><br />Kerna ibu lahirlah diri,<br />Tidaklah kurang ayah bekorban,<br />Kerna ilmu mulia peribadi,<br />Bukanlah harta jadi ukuran.<br /><br />Bukanlah kami menjual ikan,<br />Hanya mengajar cara mengail,<br />Bukan disini semua pengetahuan,<br />Hanya penyedar minda yang jahil.<br /><br />Bila berakhir belajar di sini,<br />Dunia diluar jadikan guru,<br />Bila pulang menabur bakti,<br />Moga amalan dipimpin ilmu.<br /><br />I love you,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-4196484035867670152010-10-08T12:31:00.001+08:002010-10-13T00:38:34.257+08:00MaklongDear baby,<br /><br />Hopefully you're doing fine with your mom. Happy.. healthy as always. <br /><br />I just want you to know that today, early in the morning, I got a call from my mom saying that my dad's eldest sister has passed away due to complication after operation due to her diabetes. We call her maklong and she stayed for along long time in sendayan, negeri sembilan. <br /><br />Maklong was "The aunty" for us all. She took care of us quite a few times when our parents had to go abroad. Going back to her place is as equivalent as going back to Kampung during raya time. Her place was a nice small kampung called kg jimah lama and a very nice village. <br /><br />There are alot of cows, chicken, fish ponds, many many rambutan trees. I learnt how to ride a bike there.. my brothers and sisters too.. at least, that's the only place where our dad will allow us to ride motocycle.. hehehe<br /><br />Maklong was always kind and nice to us.. as kids, we were naughty and always like to scare the small yellow chicks. I stepped on one of it accidentally or course, while running and chasing it. They were so cute and adorable and thats why kids love to play with it.<br /><br />Maklong's voice is the one that is distinctive to us all. :)<br /><br />We pray that her soul rests in peace now. Al-fatihah.<br /><br />Love you,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-31829693878959443222010-09-13T21:30:00.003+08:002010-09-13T22:09:39.683+08:00Eid Mubarak 2010dear baby, <br /><br />I pray that you're ok and happy with mom. Alhamdulillah, Allah has given us this opportunity to celebrate eid. i know your raya might not be much, not being able to see your dad, your grandparents, and aunties and uncles, and your cousins. Rest assured, Allah will punish in this world and in the world hereafter the people whom restrain you from your rights. So we pray, amin.<br /><br />I just want to share some pictures from raya, but i only managed to get some up. Now back at work early due to terminal commissioning. as usual, similar to last year, my family and I went to the house where we believed you're in together with the authority to get you. But nobody seem to answer the door. i saw that your mom's clothes are gone, but they leave behind the book i left for you. i brought the book back with me cause it's meaningful to me. <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0ERERNoYWb9laCfJzDQhdh_ljdijciyiVJ5utH3-JYko5bVktS0IeVHuKzMC8-BuJvb6J2hGDGREv96eQdnuFxNWo-OENOTpTH2eqflwZbeBzsIvPO24L7wVQ0BYzGFvwcegcQ6nPwEiC/s1600/pops+house.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0ERERNoYWb9laCfJzDQhdh_ljdijciyiVJ5utH3-JYko5bVktS0IeVHuKzMC8-BuJvb6J2hGDGREv96eQdnuFxNWo-OENOTpTH2eqflwZbeBzsIvPO24L7wVQ0BYzGFvwcegcQ6nPwEiC/s200/pops+house.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5516393325051727346" /></a> we had a blast during raya. it's a full house as always. better, atuk's house renovation in kajang is complete and we now have 5 additional room and 1 dining area. this is by far, the biggest house we ever lived in as a family and the size is about 4000+ sq feet x 2 floors (some areas). awesome.<br /><br />nenek also has pencen and she has received her gratuity. She gave each and everyone of us quite alot for duit raya. never like before. thanks to nenek. I keep all for you ya. :) like last year, my brothers and I played mercun and it was a blast. We also bought alot of interior design stuff for atuk and nenek.. new mattress, new furnitures and curtain. i hope they're happy with it. <br /><br />we had big buffet, family karaoke session set by uncle poodle. live karaoke by uncle amat and uncle poople. i sang the most.. hehe.. maybe just to be happy. we dance abit with you uncles and aunties.. fooling around. atuk nenek were happy. i gave all my cousins duit raya. nobody gave duit raya for you though, :P but i'll save mine for you. :)<br /><br />i've also got the bonus for this year. not as last year, but the salary revision was great enough. hence, i'll save more for us insyaAllah. during raya, of course the uncles and aunties keep talking about me getting married again, but maybe not in the next three years. i got plans to make sure i save alot of money for you. ill give it to you all when we see each other soon.<br /><br />do know that i'll give you everything, if only i get to see you. :) i will spare no effort to secure your happiness. <br /><br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-27936506255322561642010-08-31T17:56:00.002+08:002010-08-31T18:34:05.615+08:00Merdeka 2010Dear baby, <br /><br />I leave you on this beautiful Merdeka Day with the song, Gurindam Jiwa. This song means alot and i think of you when i listen to this song.<br /><br />Im here always,<br />Abah.<br /><br />Tuai padi antara masak<br />Esok jangan layu layuan<br />Intai kami antara nampak<br />Esok jangan rindu rinduan<br /><br />Anak cina pasang lukah <br />Lukah di pasang di tanjung jati<br />Di dalam hati tidak ku lupa<br />Sebagai rambut bersimpul mati<br /><br />Batang selaseh permainan budak<br />Daun selaseh di makan kuda<br />Bercerai kasih talak tiada<br />Seribu tahun kembali juga<br /><br />Burung merpati terbang seribu<br />Terbang seekor di tengah laman<br />Hendak mati di hujung kuku<br />Hendak berkubur di tapak tanganLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-17228572304225509302010-08-29T11:04:00.002+08:002010-08-29T12:15:00.171+08:00truthDear baby,<br /><br />I pray to Allah that you're ok with your mom. While im not sure if you're still with your mom, checking Asmah's house last week revealed that you're not there. We got a call from Asmah's new husband, saying that you left with your mom. That i view is positive, cause I dont want you to be raised by Asmah and believe in her way of life.<br /><br />Her husband also gave me an address and your mom's new phone number. I tried calling, but another man picked up the phone. I guess, that's your mom's new husband. He didnt let us get to you. Not cool. He must be stupid or something. I shared with my friends on facebook :-<br /><br />Kebenaran seseorang patutnya asas & umum.<br /><br />>Ia tak perlu sembunyi ("ini satu rahsia penting!!" aa??)<br />>Ia senang diceritakan (satu napas)<br />>Ia tak perlu percaya lebih dari biasa kepada seseorang ("syeikh ni dapat petunjuk direct Allah dari mimpi" aaa??)<br />>Kebenaran tak berlawan dengan hukum alam ("hanya org2 tertentu boleh nampak" yeah right!)<br /><br />I hope that your mom, people surrounding you, stop living their lives and come out and live as normal people. I pray to Allah, you become a good Muslimah someday, away from all these people. Amin.<br /><br />Love, <br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-53870932198198576992010-08-24T22:11:00.005+08:002010-08-28T11:31:38.304+08:00Big Baby :)dear baby insyirah, <br /><br />i pray that you're happy and healthy with mom. im back in pasir gudang with some interesting developments, about you. :) Alhamdulillah, from a family friend, we heard that you're back in malaysia. i managed to get the address of a house where you stayed and immediately went there with your grandma. it was that house allright. i saw your mom's clothes on the door and boxes all over the house. the uncle whom used to take care of you in ireland moved in there. <br /><br />The door was answered by ustat amir. he was one of the guys that beat me up in tmn waja when i wanted to serve asmah, a court order. he then, ranaway. the police managed to capture another ustat in klang last year about this same time. Alhamdulillah, at least they still honor my police report in KK two years back. He got put into jail and stayed there for awhile. his house was surrounded by 3 patrol cars. i still remember that time.<br /><br />Im pretty sure these guys that are hiding you are scared now. the ustaz asked us to come back to the house at 6 pm. when he saw us, he ran.. lol. then, we got a call from the uncle that took care of you. he was scared to death and talking like a mad man to your grandma. Alhamdulillah, at least by that natural reaction, we know that we got the right place. <br /><br />I have arranged for few things to be done. I've done it before, going up and down of police stations and court. i will do it again, this time with bigger team and faster actions. The purpose of all this is just to get you back to us, and not leave you with people that are not even your family, except your mom. He said your mom is marrying another man in singapore. I thought last time they said that she's married to him. I pity them. Grandma kept repeating that to him. He's a pitiful lot. Oh well.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3VT97EvsC-_yrdcpYa5BhhANoKRCCkjiY4hrzNTCjU5-XQioYNbfVciYILQIofK2Kke93ct8a7KW9YyYEEu7-KDKN4vm5mvYMPPu24lVk6uzZt08K66lxRNUOYVNTGo2Zf5qbkMNiBKGC/s1600/aiya.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 150px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3VT97EvsC-_yrdcpYa5BhhANoKRCCkjiY4hrzNTCjU5-XQioYNbfVciYILQIofK2Kke93ct8a7KW9YyYEEu7-KDKN4vm5mvYMPPu24lVk6uzZt08K66lxRNUOYVNTGo2Zf5qbkMNiBKGC/s200/aiya.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508983075430426098" /></a> May Allah assist us, amin. I leave you with your picture that your mom post online. she have changed your name, i guess to suit the uncle's name, her 2nd or 3rd or 4th husband, beats me. So long you're happy baby. Even asmah changed her name and used indonesian pasport to go to KK, i heard. She's scared of being caught cause she did not attend the court hearing last time, lol. now, she's also facing shariah court for marrying another man while still married to her ex-husband. quite screwed up. best not to think about it too much.<br /><br />But insyaAllah, i will try again this time. The same thing, but faster considering that now we are in KL, where my family come from. See, we have many friends and family here. :)<br /><br />I'm here for you always, determined to save you from their madness. The good thing is, this time around, Im no longer alone. They have made one too many enemy and running from all kinds of people. Allah has his ways to punish the evildoers.<br /><br />Love you lot, Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-28722041874748672512010-08-13T23:04:00.002+08:002010-08-13T23:25:26.287+08:00YesterdayAssalamualaikum wbt my baby, <br /><br />Hope you're happy and healthy with your mother. Im here at Pasir Gudang, working. I always liked this song, and when I went for karaoke, I usually sing it. I think of your mom when this song plays in the radio/ Youtube.<br /><br />This is to tell her that I dont love her the way I used to. But you my baby, I will always cherish and love every single day.<br /><br />Love, Abah.<br /><br />I Don't Love You lyrics<br />Songwriters: Iero, Frank; Toro, Raymond; Way, Gerrard; Way, Michael;<br /><br />Well, when you go<br />Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay<br />And maybe when you get back<br />I'll be off to find another way<br /><br />And after all this time that you still owe<br />You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know<br />So take your gloves and get out<br />Better get out while you can<br /><br />When you go would you even turn to say<br />"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?<br /><br />Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading<br />So sick and tired of all the needless beating<br />But baby when they knock you down and out<br />It's where you oughta stay<br /><br />Well after all the blood that you still owe<br />Another dollar's just another blow<br />So fix your eyes and get up<br />Better get up while you can, whoa whoa<br /><br />When you go would you even turn to say<br />"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?<br />Well come on, come on!<br /><br />When you go would you have the guts to say<br />"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?<br /><br />I don't love you like I loved you yesterday<br />I don't love you like I loved you yesterdayLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-86728182354964447852010-08-07T10:55:00.002+08:002010-08-07T11:05:46.212+08:00now & todaydear baby aiya, <br /><br />I pray to Allah that you're happy and healthy with your mom. You get all the love and blissful life that you deserve as a young baby. Im ok, in kl and will be heading to penang later tomorrow for work.<br /><br />puasa is coming soon and i hope that I can pray and fast properly, revisit my spiritual health. gotto pray hard. I miss you alot yesterday, and thinking of you alot of time. I played the movies i captures of you.. hehe :) make me less sad.<br /><br />I plan to do alot of things before marrying again. Ive been getting proposals and your grandma pushing me to marry her choice. It's quite clear that I want to achieve few things before marrying again. <br /><br />I want to make sure my brothers are financially independent so that your grandparents can now retire. Then, I want to make sure they get married first and have a stable family life. Then, i want to make sure im financially free, by creating some wealth for us. I got quite some cash in my hand.. more than what i made before, but it's not wealth per se. it's saving, and bank loans for house and car.. <br /><br />So, i have to work harder. Ive beeing getting few proposals for marriage. I just dont want to rush into it. Just be friends for awhile and see how it goes from there. At least all these ladies know about you. Many of them were my friends from school and work. I know they just want to help. :-) <br /><br />I love you baby, insyaAllah, we'll see each other sooner than later.<br /><br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-81919633474076750772010-07-22T10:46:00.002+08:002010-07-22T11:05:32.708+08:00work workDear baby insyirah,<br /><br />I pray to Allah that you're ok and happy with your mother. Ive lost count on how many days were there since we last saw each other. I pray to Allah that every moment we get seperated, Allah repay us in this world and in the heaven, amin. And Allah forgive all our sins. For Allah have bought the world from the believers.<br /><br />Im back in KK. I arrived two nights ago and had my technical exam yesterday. The exam was allright. I passed the mark to be promoted, but I have a few more gaps to close. The assessors are my gurus and i respect them both. Allah has fate it, i saw in the newspaper your mom's father has been dismissed of the corruption charges. Hm, it is sad to hear from them last time that your own mother was the one that reported it to the police. But, insyaAllah truth prevails.<br /><br />Lets talk about today..... im on leave for two days for this specific reason to furnish our first home in cyber city, kk!! i decided not to rent it out for now cause, i want to use it throughout the year. the monthly to the bank is small too.. ill bring all our old furniture since melaka to furnish the room. i plan to buy a better cabinet for the living room and a nice couch. :) <br /><br />I'll hang our pictures. not your mom pictures though, cause that can be sad.. but your pictures always bring smiles to my face. well, im just doing my part as a father so at least you ahve a home in a city where you were born. in the hereafter, if God ask if i've done enough for you.. of course not, but i sure did a few things Alhamdulillah. <br /><br />I think i kinda saw someone that looked like your mom yesterday with a man. i cant really tell if its her, cause i did not see you. but one of these days i guess that will happen, and judging from how i reacted yesterday, i guess i'll be fine. it's good that she's now happy, for you'll be happy too.. :) me, im a guy.. im happy all the time.. hehehe ;) <br /><br />Do know that i love you no matter what. maybe i can complete our book this weekend once our home is done.. old furnitures for the bedroom, new furnitures for the living room, old big TV. Old kitchen with new cabinets. Ill put on grill.. curtain. light fixtures. it'll be awesome. big old picture of the artic. many2 frames of your pictures... <br /><br />love you much,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-52648819319633355022010-07-16T22:06:00.003+08:002010-07-16T22:19:30.243+08:00The BookDear baby aiya,<br /><br />What are you doing? <br />Tengah mamam or sleeping?<br />What are you doing..<br /><br />Abah just finished work,<br />Ate durian, mcd and drinking coke,<br />Thinking of you, and our book.<br /><br />This book is all my letters,<br />To you throughout the years,<br />Reading it, I shed tears.<br /><br />But this book is a must,<br />So you know my love will last, <br />Beyond the sand time in glass.<br /><br />So let me write this book,<br />As one of my tribute,<br />Even how long the time it took.<br /><br />For my love to you is countless,<br />May someday you'll read these letters,<br />Looking back and say, <br />"Abah loves me, That's all that matters".<br /><br />Love, <br />Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-48382475782888485992010-07-08T12:05:00.002+08:002010-07-08T12:17:28.699+08:00100th letterDear baby,<br /><br />I love you and i miss you so much. Hope you're happy with your mom. This post isthe 100th letter to you. It's been awhile since i saw you last. More than 2 years now. But im sure your mom will care you allright.<br /><br />Family update, you'll be getting a baby cousin soon.. :-) pleasant surprise to us all especially atuk and nenek. All have been praying for it and now it's coming.. It's uncle poodle and aunty tqah first baby. Second grand child to your grandpa and gramma. In few months time, you'll get your first cousin. :-)<br /><br />I hope this 100th letter is more meningful with this news. We went for family dinner after that, awesome. I also want to share 2 pantun i created for me and your mom's wedding. I saw it while trying to find old emails.<br /><br />Sirih dijujung adat bertahta,<br />Belah pinang sama serasi,<br />Kasih disanjung doa diminta,<br />Semoga sayang kekal abadi.<br /><br />Simpan padi buangkan duri,<br />Carikan rotan di sayat-sayat,<br />Kalau sudi bawalah diri,<br />Buat ingatan sepanjang hayat.<br /><br />Much love,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-5662931474339405682010-07-01T18:45:00.002+08:002010-07-01T18:48:52.232+08:00AngelMy baby, my angel :-)<br /><br />Abah<br /><br />--- Sarah McLachlan - Angel ---<br /><br />Spend all your time waiting<br />For that second chance<br />For a break that would make it okay<br />There’s always one reason<br />To feel not good enough<br />And it’s hard at the end of the day<br />I need some distraction<br />Oh beautiful release<br />Memory seeps from my veins<br />Let me be empty<br />And weightless and maybe<br />I’ll find some peace tonight<br /><br />In the arms of an angel<br />Fly away from here<br />From this dark cold hotel room<br />And the endlessness that you fear<br />You are pulled from the wreckage<br />Of your silent reverie<br />You’re in the arms of the angel<br />May you find some comfort there<br /><br />So tired of the straight line<br />And everywhere you turn<br />There’s vultures and thieves at your back<br />And the storm keeps on twisting<br />You keep on building the lie<br />That you make up for all that you lack<br />It don’t make no difference<br />Escaping one last time<br />It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh<br />This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees<br /><br />In the arms of an angel<br />Fly away from here<br />From this dark cold hotel room<br />And the endlessness that you fear<br />You are pulled from the wreckage<br />Of your silent reverie<br />You’re in the arms of the angel<br />May you find some comfort there<br />You’re in the arms of the angel<br />May you find some comfort hereLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-69271454724941355742010-06-30T11:39:00.004+08:002010-06-30T11:50:48.816+08:00CSRDear baby, <br /><br />I pray that you're healthy and happy with your mom. Im ok here. Cannot be happy more. Starting this month, my salary has increased more Alhamdulillah. May Allah allow me to be with you in this world to share what I have, amin.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpHgzbJFfjbiy8gxxqImK8tJDvAb1m3UXMz8c00cWeoJLxDA0QMbSk8OdQlkO_zy1C8iyG8qkEshunmNlxQ5LXe84myN383zOaGPxFLR6rvwiMKY57dOLHGriiW7quU5icci_VGpHo8v7d/s1600/csr.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpHgzbJFfjbiy8gxxqImK8tJDvAb1m3UXMz8c00cWeoJLxDA0QMbSk8OdQlkO_zy1C8iyG8qkEshunmNlxQ5LXe84myN383zOaGPxFLR6rvwiMKY57dOLHGriiW7quU5icci_VGpHo8v7d/s200/csr.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5488407770887196434" /></a> I participated in a Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) program that we have been planning for the past months in a primary school in Dengkil. It was awesome and I get to interract with kids of 12-yrs old. They are all full of energy. :-). I pray to Allah you'll be smart and energetic like them too. <br /><br />The past few days, Ive been traveling up and down from penang to kl and johor to assist with my company operation up north. Apparently some operators decided that they dont want to work anymore, so my boys have to fill in. We came with 12-men strong and took over one of three production line.<br /><br />Along the way, I heard some songs that I love on the radio. I have always like this one singer, Sarah McLachlan. She's Canadian and very pretty. Someday, you'll be as pretty as her, amin. She has a very nice voice too. The best song for me, that she ever recorded is "Angel". One of these days, Ill post the lyrics here for you. :-)<br /><br />Im in KL now, doing some banking works. Thinking of buying a new car for us.. BMW 3-series maybe.. hehe Alhamdulillah, I can comfortably afford it by now. You saving, is safe with nenek. I force save few hundreds per month into my Tbg Haji account just for you. :-) I pray that by the time you're 17, I can save at least a million ringgit for you.<br /><br />I love you always baby,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-39977464441952815662010-06-19T18:21:00.000+08:002010-06-25T18:32:04.403+08:00Mengapa DirinduSalam baby,<br /><br />I love malay classic and I heard this song on the way to Prai, Penang early this week. Looked up in Google and I thought that, lets share it with you. The song is awesome, for it is pantun. And you know how I love pantun too.<br /><br />Mengapa Dirindu (Uji Rashid)<br /><br />Anak punai anak merbah<br />Terbang turun buat sarang<br />Anak sungai pun berubah<br />Ini pula hati orang<br />Mengapa dikenang<br /><br />Asal kapas jadi benang<br />Dari benang dibuat baju<br />Barang lepas jangan kenang<br />Sudah jadi orang baru<br />Mengapa dirindu<br /><br />Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi<br />Kasih yang baru simpan di hati<br />Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi<br />Kasih yang baru simpan di hati<br /><br />Selat teduh lautan tenang<br />Banyak labuh perahu Aceh<br />Jangan kesal jangan kenang<br />Walau hati rasa pedih<br />Mengapa bersedih<br /><br />Kalau pinang masih muda<br />Rasanya kelat sudahlah pasti<br />Kalau hilang kasih lama<br />Cari lain untuk ganti<br />Mengapa dinanti<br /><br />Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti<br />Akan sembuh kalau diubati<br />Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti<br />Akan sembuh kalau diubati<br /><br />Sayang mengapa dirindu. Sayang dirindu because you're my very own baby, my sweetheart.<br /><br />Love you always,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-57722931626671846202010-06-14T20:18:00.002+08:002010-06-14T20:33:37.303+08:00que sera seraassalamualaikum wbt my beloved baby, the one that i love and will always love. <br /><br />may you be protected by Allah from all the evils surrouding you and may Allah bring us together if not in this world, let it be in the world hereafter. Rest assured baby, even if my life ends today, during the 30th year of my life, i pray to Allah to let my eyes be closed and my lips be smiling for Allah answers the prayers of the oppressed. And insysaAllah, my prayer is that we shall see each other again and be happy eternally.<br /><br />today is my 30th birthday. my family members hung out with me in KL yesterday and we had a karaoke session with eveyone. it was nice. i was so happy. we all sang for more than 4 hours. your grandmama gave me a significant amount of money via check for our business, partly to buy 10 units of shops in Johor. May Allah make it easy for us all, amin.<br /><br />uncle reza, my only best friend took me to dinner at concorde hotel in kl. well, i always like to stay there whevener im in kl and their kitchen is awesome. I always like their food. today, im back to work but we had a very special program going on. we went to a mosque and assisted with cleaning and repainting the mosque. it was nice and memorable for us all.<br /><br />on my 30th birthday, i look back on what i have planned for today maybe 2-3 years back. for my life, for you, for my family. there's still a gap there especially in the economic area. eventhough we are all earning good income, especially your grandparents, i always wish that i can do more for the family, for us.<br /><br />so, i guess enough reflection and enough meditation at the mountains or islands. today and now, i just hang out at mc donalds and gaugemy current situation. insyaAllah, i pray to Allah that He makes it easy for me and you to be better insyaAllah.<br /><br />que sera sera means, whatever will be, will be. So, que sera sera baby.<br /><br />until we meet again, always loving you.<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-47111266088684158852010-06-04T15:08:00.003+08:002010-06-04T15:18:44.953+08:00Rachel CorrieDear baby,<br /><br />I pray that you happy and healthly where ever you are. Im ok and no win KLCC waiting for uncle nawa to do some banking stuff. We just finished friday prayer and today many of my friends are assembling at us embassy rioting against israel.<br /><br />Rachel Corrie is a name we have to remember because she also fought against Israel by merely using her body to block the tractor. Im not sure you understand this now, but i hope you will someday.<br /><br />Pray hard for all of us and for all the muslims in Palestine. I leave you with this Michael Buble song, "Havent Met You Yet".<br /><br />I'm not surprised, not everything lasts<br />I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track<br />Talk myself in, I talk myself out<br />I get all worked up, then I let myself down<br /><br />I tried so very hard not to lose it<br />I came up with a million excuses<br />I thought, I thought of every possibility<br /><br />And I know someday that it'll all turn out<br />You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out<br />And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get<br />I just haven't met you yet<br /><br />I might have to wait, I'll never give up<br />I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck<br />Wherever you are, whenever it's right<br />You'll come out of nowhere and into my life<br /><br />And I know that we can be so amazing<br />And, baby, your love is gonna change me<br />And now I can see every possibility<br /><br />And somehow I know that it'll all turn out<br />You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out<br />And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get<br />I just haven't met you yet<br /><br />They say all's fair<br />In love and war<br />But I won't need to fight it<br />We'll get it right and we'll be united<br /><br />And I know that we can be so amazing<br />And being in your life is gonna change me<br />And now I can see every single possibility<br /><br />And someday I know it'll all turn out<br />And I'll work to work it out<br />Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get<br />Than I get, than I get, than I get<br /><br />Oh, you know it'll all turn out<br />And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out<br />And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get<br />Yeah, I just haven't met you yet<br /><br />I just haven't met you yet<br />Oh, promise you, kid<br />To give so much more than I get<br /><br />I said love, love, love, love<br />Love, love, love, love<br />(I just haven't met you yet)<br />Love, love, love, love<br />Love, love<br />I just haven't met you yet<br /><br />Love,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-7453945285917924072010-05-28T18:14:00.005+08:002010-05-31T00:14:06.924+08:00Long weekendPantun semasa.<br /><br />Turun lembah tanah berpaya,<br />Telaga lama tembok berpahat,<br />Lama abah tak jumpa aiya,<br />Moga sentiasa gembira dan sihat.<br /><br /><br />Tangkap lebah dan kura kura,<br />Bunga merah tumbuh merata,<br />Keluarga abah di singapura,<br />Pergi ziarah saudara kita.<br /><br />Tunduk rendah kaki terkehel,<br />Waktu petang lari kekiri,<br />Kawan abah kawin di KL,<br />Abah datang hadirkan diri.<br /><br />Rubah kan terus menangkap muat,<br />Ayam serama digigit jari,<br />Abah kan terus bekerja kuat,<br />Ibadah dijaga setiap hari.<br /><br />Bunga kemboja berdaun empat,<br />Baunya harum diwaktu pagi.<br />Semoga aiya membesar cepat,<br />Esok lusa berjumpa lagi.<br /><br />Sayang aiya,<br />Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-45305632299926779862010-05-22T17:22:00.002+08:002010-05-22T17:29:02.436+08:00English PatientDear Baby,<br /><br />A quote/poem i remember today when's its raining and thinking about us. It came from a movie English Patient. Someday, just maybe you get to watch this movie. This quote/poem was from the last scene where the heroin was waiting for her love in a dark cave after an airplane incident.<br /><br />My darling.<br />I'm waiting for you.<br />How long is the day in the dark? Or a week?<br /><br />The fire is gone, and I'm horribly cold.<br />I really should drag myself outside but then there'd be the sun.<br />I'm afraid I waste the light on the paintings, not writing these words.<br /><br />We die.<br />We die rich with lovers and tribes,<br />tastes we have swallowed,<br />bodies we've entered and swum up like rivers.<br />Fears we've hidden in - like this wretched cave.<br /><br />I want all this marked on my body.<br />Where the real countries are.<br />Not boundaries drawn on maps with the names of powerful men.<br /><br />I know you'll come carry me out to the Palace of Winds.<br />That's what I've wanted: to walk in such a place with you.<br />With friends, on an earth without maps.<br /><br />The lamp has gone out and I'm writing in the darkness..<br /><br />Love you,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-52865503160579427992010-05-15T10:10:00.010+08:002010-05-15T10:31:25.615+08:00kk home<div><br /><br /><div>assalamualaikum my baby aiya,<br /><br />Abah in klcc convention center now, checking out the innovation convention. Last weekend was quite a blast workwise, but every moment passed was not without you. :-) Im working very very hard right now, for Allah so that someday you can get a good life.<br /><br />Ive been meaning to share some pictures with you here..<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlYRjNfbIbV9-B527npCWu12CCdjZObDq_MZisCnH_nbSKe3HivjOg5jrMhHDVKjswsLthfFrEmFWQF7-UJE6PrszQz01KGn_tFMNXzQSMS7gvqIPCzSgUorT7L1f9qCCAUY3WuuZ4v0YA/s1600/miao2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5471317112365855826" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlYRjNfbIbV9-B527npCWu12CCdjZObDq_MZisCnH_nbSKe3HivjOg5jrMhHDVKjswsLthfFrEmFWQF7-UJE6PrszQz01KGn_tFMNXzQSMS7gvqIPCzSgUorT7L1f9qCCAUY3WuuZ4v0YA/s200/miao2.jpg" border="0" /></a>Nenek's cats in batu pahat. nenek misses you. She's not well. May Allah punish the people that cause her oppression, not being able to see you. amin.<br /></div><br />Puss is the mother and has 2 kids before this and they were born during Hari Raya Aidil Adha last year. They were called Aidil and Adha. These 4 new kittens were just few hours old when this picture was taken.<br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigdh7Tv_30LesYd5_tp4wxzqGzR6JhtBNDpmzKlxVwiemDWZdvmLCC-tIQE-Qb1a8jnejZhKP3Q3wdHeDsRbiGCK1PWTnVTGQX8ix9fEOhJFhAfKkDVdZ4mTeHBY_mzTKXNJGO5lwGrkIQ/s1600/cc.jpg"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigdh7Tv_30LesYd5_tp4wxzqGzR6JhtBNDpmzKlxVwiemDWZdvmLCC-tIQE-Qb1a8jnejZhKP3Q3wdHeDsRbiGCK1PWTnVTGQX8ix9fEOhJFhAfKkDVdZ4mTeHBY_mzTKXNJGO5lwGrkIQ/s1600/cc.jpg"></a></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEfA4BSebgUBa69f0kS3toG5MukW-3EHwybZr8J5ozZsSH3Djk_hoGm3pQntEuRW_d2uH9x1jbyGLGYl92bh_TiXLUz3fDBbXkjM3PcfSs237nhYV4j3e6Wvt46g1kbvED5xUFEanAerdR/s1600/cc.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5471317990211331602" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEfA4BSebgUBa69f0kS3toG5MukW-3EHwybZr8J5ozZsSH3Djk_hoGm3pQntEuRW_d2uH9x1jbyGLGYl92bh_TiXLUz3fDBbXkjM3PcfSs237nhYV4j3e6Wvt46g1kbvED5xUFEanAerdR/s200/cc.jpg" border="0" /></a>Our home in KK. I got the keys already and in the process of transferring our furnitures in there. It should be a good retreat spot. </div><div> </div><div>It has swimming pool for babies and adults, a big hall and many more. The apt is just 1 room, but big enough for you and me. The security is very good which is important cause, I want you to be safe always. The monthly pay is cheap too, Alhamdulillah.</div><div> </div><div>Working very hard now baby, someday, you and me insyaAllah.<br /><br />Love you always,<br />Abah</div></div>Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-43828787193660929882010-05-02T10:59:00.001+08:002010-05-02T11:01:11.573+08:00Today in KKAssalamualaikum aiya :-)<br /><br />Angkat sauh di air tenang, <br />Tali layarnya ikat dikain, <br />Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang, <br />Inikan pula tempat bermain.<br /><br />Arus laju sampan terbuang, <br />Galah dasarnya pejal terasa, <br />Terus maju hidup berjuang, <br />Alah bisa tegal biasa.<br /><br />Love you baby, always.<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-22016795880506390752010-04-26T19:52:00.000+08:002010-04-26T19:53:55.679+08:00tuah kitaLumrah alam puncak di daki, <br />Lumrah usia jasa dibahu,<br />Tuah ayam nampak di kaki, <br />Tuah manusia siapa yang tahu.<br /><br />Dear baby insyirah, wherever you are. Im here working as usual and thinking of you all the time. I pray that you're happy and healthy with your mom. I pray that you grow to be a good person, a good muslim.<br /><br />Last weekend was a bit packed and many things happen family wise. I went back to see my mom in bp and spend time with her. Been getting few calls from your mom's parents. They've been talking apparently with my parents. I guess they all miss you.<br /><br />On sunday, my dad and i went to see another project at surada. Nice studio apartments for you and me, attached to the main house. Very grandios and nice. Had lunch with my sister and uncle tern. Managed to prepare some work stuff too.<br /><br />Some things happen at kg. The mama meow delivered 4 more kittens. Comel like you. Planted some fruit trees and fed the fish. The kitten born last year are now big and healthy. They are enough reason to come back and chill at kg.<br /><br />Im working on few projects now mainly at office and some business prroposals with friends. Plan to lose more weight, save more money and generate more passive income. Our kk apt is ready. And ive started paying the bank. So, i hope you can live there soon. <br /><br />You are my baby, and i love you always.<br />Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-74359675521475594822010-04-21T18:57:00.000+08:002010-04-21T19:04:31.688+08:00have i told you latelyAssalamualaikum wbt my baby aiya,<br /><br />I pray that you're happy and healthy with your mom always. I'm in port dickson now and have been thinking about what to say to you the past few days. Went back to see your grandparents in bp during the weekend. Baby miao are big now. Im in pd for training from work. Tomorrow, will be klia then back to jb friday. I'll leave you today with this song i heard during my drive to this awesome beach. My childhood beach.<br /><br />Rod steward - have i told you lately.<br /><br />Have i told you lately, that i love<br />Have i told you there's no one else above you<br />Fill my heart with gladness, takeaway all my sadness<br />Ease my trobles thats what you do<br /><br />For the morning sun in all its glory<br />Meets the day with hope and comfort too<br />You fill my laugh with laughter, somehow you make it better<br />Ease my troubles thats what you do<br /><br />There's a love less defined<br />And it yours and its mine<br />Like the sun<br />And at the end of the day<br />We should give thanks and pray<br />To the One, to the One.<br /><br />Have i told you lately, that i love<br />Have i told you there's no one else above you<br />Fill my heart with gladness, takeaway all my sadness<br />Ease my trobles thats what you do<br /><br />Fill my heart with gladness, takeaway all my sadness<br />Ease my trobles thats what you do.<br /><br />Love you baby, always.<br />Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-78473208684535942672010-04-20T08:36:00.007+08:002010-05-01T13:44:16.823+08:00the prayerassalamualaikum wbt aiya, <br /><br />i pray that you're happy and healthy with your mom today. playing and reading and doing the things you like. i pray to Allah that anyone who abuse or use you in any way will end up in hell and Allah punish every second of their life in this world and in the world here after. May Allah punish them with the highest severity for using an innocent child like you, amin.<br /><br />O Allah, You have assinged me as insyirah's father in this world and to You ya Allah we return. O Allah, punish the people whom use or abuse my daughter insyirah and retract all Your love to them as the retract insyirah from me. amin. <br /><br />remember my baby, many things have happened since they took you away from me. Remember our prayers last time. 'ya Allah, kami adalah orang2 yang teraniaya, maka kurniakanlah kami kebahagian, kejayaan, kesenangan di dunia ini dan di akhirat nanti di atas segala musibah yang melanda kami. ya Allah ampunilah kami kerana kami tidak mampu memaafkan orang2 yang menganiaya kami'. <br /><br />Allah answers the prayers of the oppressed. Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah i have received and going to receive another very significant salary increment this coming june. the past 3 years they took you away from me, i have got the 3 biggest increments in my worklife. yesterday, i transferred majority of all this to a special account for you and im letting nenek keep the book, so that i dont use it for other things.<br /><br />The people who oppresed us last time and are oppressing us now also have went through alot and they have lost alot. Asmah and her husband jury whom was the very person who told me that your grandmother wanted me to separate your mother, has also divorced. ust. jury lost his son, his wife got married to another man without being legally divorced and they all are in the run. <br /><br />your grandparents momside that threw me away from their house and separate us when you were only 3 months, went through alot. court cases and all and the most painful was definitely being disowned by your mother. they have lost lots of money and lost their daughter, your mom. form amny stories i heard, they went through alot of problems caused by your mom.<br /><br />And your mother, went through alot too as i reminded her, isteri yang tidak taat akan merana dunia akhirat. ran all over the country, ran all over the world. <br /><br />Allah knows baby. Im not saying im close to Allah. but im trying to remind us to never oppress other for Allah will answer the prayers of the oppressed.<br /><br />So, let us pray honey that someday, Allah will let us meet each other if not in this world, let it be in the world hereafter. <br /><br />I love you no matter what baby,<br />AbahLemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3288004272208930498.post-8049352873359457622010-04-14T07:06:00.003+08:002010-04-14T07:27:01.292+08:00part ofSalam my beloved baby nur insyirah,<br /><br />I pray that you're happy and healthy with your mom. this is my first week in johor as part of the new job. quite a few development about everything, but it circulates mainly about people surrounding you. Been getting emails from people i never know, and getting more stories about the life surrounding you and your mom. Sad mainly. New work also require more time to know the town, the people and i already know the job all right.<br /><br />I had a long thought of you last night and your mom. you seemed happy and healthy with her but only Allah knows how fragile her state of mind is. All the lies she have develop over the years i guess to cover her self up from her previous life. Changed your name. Dissed her friends and her family. she or asmah, i dont know who really, wrote something on your blog. Nasty as before. They haven't changed.<br /><br />Your mom run away even from your own grandfather and grandmother, her own parents. When that was the reason why she left our family in the first place, to be obedient to her parents. I guess the devil outsmart us all. For me, they are all history now. But for your mom, it is something that she is carrying, a hidden emotional luggage and will continue to carry for the rest of her life. The curse of a disobedient wife. One of these days, she will forget who she really was. And it will affect you long term. That has been the center of our concern.<br /><br />Eventually i had a dream of you both last night and dreams are dreams. i woke up and prayed so that things get better. i pray for the best for you. i pray that the decisions I make this time is correct and we receive guidance from Allah. Im always here for you baby, always.<br /><br />Abah.Lemanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10300617419005790035noreply@blogger.com0